Welcome to the Renaissance

Friends! 

I have been going crazy. There is something I have been wanting to do for about three months now and I was waiting for the right time to do it. So last week...I finally decided to just seize the day.

I CUT OFF ALL MY HAIR

So not all of my hair. But I did cut off ten inches! I feel like a BRAND NEW WOMAN! I went to the cutest salon in Brooklyn that I absolutely love. Sara June is one of my favorite ladies. Not only do I go to her because her talent is worth the trip to Brooklyn, but she is also such a cool chick. It's so nice to get away from life and sit in a chair and have someone take care of you and chat with you. I will ALWAYS go to Sara June to get my hair did. And you should too.

I also got the chance to see a couple of shows over the past few weeks. My rockstar roomie Oyoyo was cast in The Book of Mormon as the vacation swing for all three productions (Broadway & 2 National Tours). She has been on the past week and I HAD to see her. I also felt it was my duty as a Utahn to FINALLY see this show. I was so proud of her. She is seriously a ROCKSTAR. This show is hilarious and sweet and Gavin Creel is AMAZING. 

My dear friend Tim Reed is working on SOMETHING ROTTEN on Broadway (I know my friends are amazing) and I was lucky enough to see it with my sweet friend Shae who was visiting. 

This. Show. Is. Hilarious

And smart.

And inspiring.

I want to see this show seven more times. 

And I hope it wins the Tony

A good day.

New York is so funny. If you read my blog, you'll know from my last post that I was having a little bit of a rough time. Feeling stressed and down, but just two days later I feel completely different. Today was wonderful. I woke up early and worked at Barry's Bootcamp  my new job that I love, then I met up with my dear friend Chris, who I haven't spent time with in a really long time. It was so so good to see him. We went to brunch, played with puppies at CitiPup and walked around down town by the water. Sometimes all you need is a friend.

This is Christopher and I back in the day.

(I believe it was summer 09)

It was also SO nice out today. It made me really excited for summer. It's going to be a good one. I can feel it :)

Hoppy Easter xoxo

Days like this

Life in New York city is so much crazier than I could have ever anticipated. I have had the highest highs and lowest lows in the past seven months than I have (almost) my entire life. There is so much possibility, and yet I feel like I'm stuck in a place where nothing exciting or fulfillig will happen for me. I've been so scared and so full of life, all in the same day. I knew living here would be hard. But I didn't imagine it would stretch me so much as a person. I've had a couple people tell me how brave I am, and that they are proud of me. At first I didn't get this...thought it was almost crazy. But after awhile I realized...yeah. I am fucking brave. Moving across the country, away from your family, your friends, your comfortable theatre career, your home, IS brave. I should be proud of myself. I've been really busy lately starting a new job, working out, and completely changing my eating habits-I've been so caught up in RIGHT NOW that once I had a moment to breathe the reality of my loneliness crashed down around me. So today was hard. I'm not always lonely. I have amazing roommates and a kitty that makes my awesome apartment cozy and happy. But I am such a family person. I'm realizing how much I rely on my family and since I haven't seen them since January, I'm really starting to miss them. I talk to everyone in my family every day. But when I get pictures of them hanging out together in the sunroom my heart kinda hurts. I wish I had THAT comfort. And when I get lonely, instead of reaching out to other friends in the city, I crawl back into my shell and lock myself in my room with my Netflix marathon and feel more and more isolated. It's something I'm trying to work on, because honestly I had those days in Utah, too. I've always struggled with that...hiding away when I should be putting myself out there.

I've also found comfort in things here that I didn't imagine. A kind word from a friend, the smell of spring, the kindness of a stranger, seeing a puppy on the street...it's cheesy but it's true, life is awesome. And awful. And I'm trying to navigate my way through it with as much grace and strength as I can muster. But today especially I miss my people in the 801. Thanks for being there for me, even when I feel alone. Thanks for reading this...whoever you are. Thanks for believing in my dream...when I forget why I have it.

Just thanks.